BOYTOONS MAGAZINE #150 – Celebration time!

Good morning Gang!

So here I am at 150 issues and counting… Never thought it would come this far, this little Blog of mine.  But today, rather than wax eloquent about how wonderful it is to have blogged quite this much, I am going to share something with you that I find very frustrating as an artist.

Yes it’s true… I am currently feeling a touch of artist block!

Okay, so, not like that’s the end of the world… EXCEPT that this ailment seems to hit me EVERY TIME I am close to the end of a project.  In this case, it’s Boytoon Adventures #1 and Felinoids #3.

There could be a few reasons for this.  Maybe it’s because I draw stuff out of order, working on all the pages that inspire me the most first.  Maybe it’s because I work for too long on the same project and need a change of pace in order to keep on creatin’! (Isn’t that what Boytoon Adventures was supposed to be?!?!) Maybe it’s just because I’m being a whiny, flaky bitch… WHO KNOWS!  It may even be all of the above.

The truth is that I get SO EXCITED when I am near the end of a project, I think it makes my head explode, causing some sort of brain blockage that shuts down my drawing drive.  I get this way for several reasons, not the least of which is how much I look forward to sharing new books with you guys!  You realize you good folks are like, my fuel, right?  LOL! ;)

This is not meant to  pressure you in any way!  But if I were drawing for myself alone, that would hardly be any fun, would it!

I think when I stop and really think about it, there is a healthy case of nerves happening.  I will let you all in on a little secret – artists can be very insecure about their work sometimes and I am no exception.

Oh sure, I know what I’m doing.  God, I hope so after all these years!!!  But I want everything to be as perfect as possible… for me AND for you.  I thrive on making us all happy!

There was a time, back when I worked at Avatar for example, where I could put myself on “automatic” and just draw, draw, draw.  The difference then is that it wasn’t MY STUFF – it was someone else’s.  That meant thinking it to death WAY LESS because it wasn’t my own creation.  Seems that when it comes to my Boytoons, I second guess constantly!  Surely, I am not the only artist who does this, but man-o-man can it be a pain in the ass.

So this morning, I am looking at Boytoon Adventures #1 and Felinoids #3 and wishing I were working on Zahn #2!  WTF?!?!  Well… okay… the REAL truth is I wish I were playing “Left 4 Dead”, but that’s not gonna happen ‘cause I gots me a business to run!  LOL!

Don’t feel bad for yours truly, and please do NOT worry.  These dry spells never last very long with me.  I’ll be inspired again before you know it, and we’ll all see Boytoon Adventures #1 and Felinoids #3 in print soon enough. This is just how it works with me, I’m afraid.

Meanwhile, this wouldn’t be a celebration of coming this far with Boytoons Magazine if I didn’t thank all of you for sticking around and for being so supportive.  You all rock, and I luvs ya! So… thanks for the fuel, dear friends!  Ours is a symbiotic relationship! ;)

Hugz + Kisses,
Patrick XOXO

PS – That’s Cal on the cover of today’s issue.  He’s just one of the new Felinoids you’ll meet in Felinoids #3! I love his little spots! Toodles!

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